A Letter for YOU

Dear Nicholas,
Today my Baby, you would have been FIVE!
It seems crazy that it's been that long since we were together. I miss your special spirit that I felt everyday as I carried you. I know having you with me as long as I did was a gift, and letting you go was the hardest thing I ever had to do, you left a giant hole in our family, ....but I KNOW you are in a better place, and a purpose there, and I have NO DOUBT that we will once more be all together again. I LOVE YOU Nicholas James with all my heart.  We all do! Our family is not complete without you, you are part of us and have a huge piece of our hearts.
We will meet again my son.

Love,
Mom

P.S. I want you to know, the morning that you left us, I remember waking up early. At the time, I didn't know what woke me, everything was silent.  I remember waking up, not moving, just laying there with my eyes open and feeling completely and utterly at peace. I never in my life had felt that peaceful. It was the most wonderful feeling I have ever felt. I know that peace that I felt that morning was a gift from you and from my Father in Heaven to strengthen and help prepare me for what was to come. I will never forget the overwhelming love that I felt in that special moment for you and from you, and for my Father in Heaven. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! It has meant the world to me!

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